love again..

tears were rolling down her cheeks...she couldnt stop crying

" so this is it .. goodbye.." the voice at the other end of the line said.

" o-k" she managed to say....she couldnt belive how much it hurt....it was like part of her was dying....but she gritted her teeth..no more pain..she decided...she felt as though the wall she had been trying to build around her heart was complete.....neevr again wud she fall prey to such temptations...

but then

"hey dearest..what wud u say if i told u that all this time ive been keeping my fingers crossed?" he queried.

she felt sumthin pierce thru her heart.. different emotions swept thru her like a tide ...confusion..relief... then anger..and self loathing

how cud she have been so stupid as to open up her heart like this...and to think that she had begged and pleaded him not to go...she felt such loathing for this one person whome she had called once her best friend....

she hung up the phone several minutes later..needless to say she was not on good terms with him.....at that moment she wanted to hurt him as badly as he had hurted her....

she recalled all the good times they had spent together....she wondered why she was puttin herself thru the pain..coz to her ,at that moment, it didnt feel worth it....
the answer came to her..slowly..and painfully...she loved him...she loved him enuf to forget all his faults..all the stupid things he did....and all the heartache[not to mention the headaches] he had put her thru.....

she realized that he had enourmus control over her...to make her hurt so very very badly....she had never let anyone get so close to her....she wanted to get away...not completely...she was too weak for that..but enuf to stop the hurt....to break the iron grip he had over her....

but in the end.....

she couldnt do it....

she lovd him too much...

love is a weird thing....it makes you hurt..ache and angry..but in the end..love is stronger than any emotion that we feel ..that we will ever feel...

love was the one thing that made her forgive him.....
and love was the one thing that would make her stand by his side forever....
he was worth the pain...


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I WROTE THIS

...eons ago...

2 comments:

  1. Anonymous said...

    let go of the past...  

  2. Evil Black Sheep said...

    girl...you know how to write.i mean...this thing has got EMOTION...you can FEEL it...it makes me wanna slap someone i love,and then kiss 'em roughly and hold on to 'em for a long looonnnnng time.this is GREAT...and i'm wondering if this thing is actually from personal experience...?  


 

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