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[*warning* this is a looong post*

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Wednesday, September 21, 2005
~ LOVE ~
love...the big L.O.V.E. ..

an ageless question asked through generations to generations..a question that is not taught but wondered by ones own thought. a question which dictionaries or scientists cant answer.. can google?? lets check...[5 mins later] nope..

the question being "why do we love?"

what google did give however is definitions for love..and here are two which leaves us with even more questions

# a strong positive emotion of regard and affection
# a deep feeling of sexual desire and attraction

so love is the same as lust??

i believe that love and lust has to come together [and im not talking ANYWHERE in this post about the love kept for family and friends] .without lust..the love wont last...and without love lust leads no where but a temporary satisfaction.. and everyone, EVERYONE longs for permenant happiness..

ok next question

DOES LOVE CAUSE HAPPINESS OR PAIN?

big question yep...
i suppose love can only bring happiness when there is a mutual love between two people...and if only one person loves..then that is bound to cause nothing but despair..
mutual love in the sense ,as there are many types of love [two big types being no1. THE CANT-BREATHE-ALL-CONSUMING LOVE and no2. THE-SAFE-QUIET LOVE] , both partners loving each other in an equal balance..i personally prefer the first type of love...

" love: That condition wherein the other person's happiness is essential to your own."

true true. ppl in love often come across this paradox. when in love u dont think much of your own happiness..u think of the other's.. like a gurl sayin "if hes happy then im happy" and vice versa...how can anyone really and honestly be happy by doing something u hate?.. its like u lose your own feelings and train of thought and is molded into your loved ones thought. crazy or what!? and the weirdest part is.. u dont actually mind ur unhappiness all that much..coz ur happy knowing that the other person is happy..urgh.now im getting confused..

" love is energy; it sustains all form and formlessness; our true identity. Love lives in the Heart. It is the Glue of the Universe. It is a Soul quality."

my favourite..

"Love was the impelling motive for manifestation. It is the creative, attractive force in the Universe. Love is magnetic, unifying; it creates understanding and is radiant. It cannot be limited to one person because it flows constantly from and to and through everything."

makes a lot of sense. .

so back to the main question

WHY DO WE LOVE?

the craving of wanting to love and be loved seems to have been planted in us right from birth. a child crying out for mother..a toddler doing silly things proudly so that she'll get a hug and a kiss. a kid trying hard to make friends at his frist day of skool and crying quietly at night when he fails..a teenager with haywire hormones going nuts over this guy or that guy or both! a grownup not feeling completed unless there is a person to love him and ofcourse is getting sex [sex is part of loving..one way of expressing our love ..]

and the most funny thought ive had is
why we never feel complete, regardless of how many family or friends we have, unless there is a person who loves us and we can love ,of the oppposite sex....[unless your gay or lesbian ofcoz]

think about it...

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i know i have been writing a lot about love lately...

its funny im actually writing about it coz im a person who screams "LOVE SUX"

but the other day i stopped myself n forced myself to think ..[bad news?? ...hell yea!]

wat is love,, at our age ..what exactly does love mean to us... like little kids who like to play pretend and play grownup.. play house.. are we teenagers trying to play a grownup game?? is the rage of feelings we feel now just our insane hormones???

i mean, on average, the longest a teen relationship wud last 4-5 yrs tops... n our moms n dads..?? THEY SPEND THE REST OF THEIR FRIGGIN LIVES TOGETHER>??!? can we ever feel the full force of love at this age..? can we even begin to imagine love..???

and thats why..i have decided to leave love as it is..just appreciate n be with the ppl who appreciate n "love" me ... take each day as they come...to not to dwell on the mysteries of love n let my heart carry me across the storms...and make them happy,the ppl who make me happy...

i knw
pretty messed up thots...
anyway thats my mind .. i dont knw what the rest of u think..since none really bother to comment even when i ask them to...

heehee

adios amigos

wish me luck in the big O's

3 comments:

  1. subcorpus said...

    hello ...
    yeah its kinda long post, eh ... hehe ...
    but a kewl post ... nevertheless ...
    but hear this out as well ...

    love is not a hard wired emotion ...
    different people express it differently ...
    and happiness is not place u need to go ...
    rather its a path that u've to walk ...
    try to enjoy the journey ...

    about that lust thing ...
    what wud u say if i asked u ...
    cud 1 lust after his/her true love ...?

    they say you r ready to love ...
    when u r see past the imperfections ...
    and take pleasure in making him/her happy ...
    u cant feel crappy doing something u enjoy doing ...
    can u ? hehe ...

    but, thats what they ...
    heck if i know ...
    enjoyed reading ur post ...
    coffee ... ? hehehe ...
    :P  

  2. c|man said...

    Love love love... love could drive a person insane,
    I like the point where you mentioned that it is us teenagers trying to play a grown up game,
    Cux I think that, at our young age, we are unable to recognize and appreciate what love really is,
    Maybe its just our hormones playing with us most of the times, causin infatuation.

    And about love causing pain, I believe love itself could only bring happiness,
    But it is being unable to love the one that you want to that causes the pain, having to let go.

    My adivce, dont get too excited about love yet, cux there are many things which could deceive you,
    Now when you realize that, that'd hurt.
    So just enjoy, dont try to fall madly n deeply in luv. cux at this age.. ur bound to break up at one point, so there's really not point.

    Jux my opinion ingey.. hehe.. tc  

  3. bulhaa said...

    ciman, thanks ill make a note of that

    subcorpus, i dont know a lot about love. this was my one attempt, long time ago, to try to understand it. needless to say i failed. i still dont understand it. but i do understand that without a certain degree of lust, relationships will not work out. btw i hate coffee :P  


 

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